Guilty Blessings

Have you ever felt guilty for your blessings?

No? Let me explain.

I have a good life. A REALLY good life. I get free college tuition, my parents are great, I don’t struggle with depression, I have no life altering illness, my family is healthy, I’ve never lost a loved one or even a pet…the list goes on.

I love my life. Sure I struggle with day-to-day frustrations, but nothing like what I’ve seen so many people struggle with recently.

And for all my beautiful things, I feel guilty. Why me, God? WHY. ME.

I think I’m waiting for the ball to drop, half of me feeling like I deserve it and half of me praying that it never does.Β I keep thinking that maybe I’m getting all the good stuff now because I’m headed for a lifetime of the exact opposite.

All of this stems from this unsolved dilemma in my mind: Why do some people get to be nicely settled with the American Dream while others are suffering and never catch a break? How does God decide who gets which? And is one more “honorable” than the other? Isn’t all the suffering supposed to “even out” somehow?

I still don’t have answers. But I know that my God does not play games. I have to remember that. HeΒ will do what is best for me.

God is not Karma.

Love,

Makenna

my cup overflows

 

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4 thoughts on “Guilty Blessings

  1. *Rae says:

    I used to be on the opposite side. My life sucked in the beginning lol poverty, lack of education, and vice of every sort. I figured God just didn’t like me. But now my life is completely different. I have been blessed more than most of the people I grew up with. I say all this to say, don’t feel guilty for your blessings. God has a way of working things out for those who suffer or who draw the short stick in life πŸ™‚

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  2. gilian says:

    I believe we are in such a position to be able to extend God’s love to others who are in the opposite situation. πŸ™‚ I’ve read a verse about it that we who are able should extend it to them who are not so that when we become the one in need, they’ll also show the same. πŸ™‚

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